Between love, passion and career
I’m so confused. Given the liberty to choose any topic for my research project has left me completely bewildered. I have several excellent topics in mind, but if I really wanted to pursue the topic, it can take me 7 – 8 months. This is the first time I’ve been very passionate about my studies. Finally, I’ve found a topic that can bridge my knowledge in computer science and education. I’ve always been fascinated by the advancement of technology. Moreover, this project could be very profitable in the future. But my highest hope is to pursue it further for my doctorate. This is also why this project must be ‘sophisticated’. Hence, allowing me to “promote” this project to my future sponsors.
Honestly, I used to hate my masters program. I never dreamt of pursuing a degree in social science. I’m a mathematician but believe me, I never really liked mathematics. That is why, I was so determined to pursue my masters in the field that I’m so passionate about and loved. Unfortunately, fate led me here. And now, I’m just trying to make the best of things…
Granted that I have sufficient time, I honestly want to stay here as long as I can. Or even apply to become a permanent resident here. I’ve always dreamt of living overseas, just like this, and I don’t want to ever leave. I’m totally in love with Canada. Montreal is my dream city – full of fashion and style. Walking down town, I honestly feel as if I was surrounded by models. Everyone is so elegantly dressed. And how I wish to be apart of this culture. Going off to work, dressed in an elegant suit and briefcase…just like them..
But then again, I’m planning to get engaged and married this year. Besides the fact that my biological clock is ticking away, I truly love him. Yes, there are other guys who wish to be with me too- even Canadians. But I can’t wait to start a family with him, to become his wife and a mother of his children. I can’t wait to settle down and decorate my house. I can’t wait to experiment with my cooking…but this would also mean leaving Montreal and my other dreams behind…
Our plan was to get engaged on my birthday and held the wedding on his. I’ve already postponed it last year, and we do not plan to postpone it any longer. Besides, it’s so unbearable to live so far apart from each other…how I wish to be 19 again…then life would be so different…
January 16th, 2007 at 8:25 pm
Dear Dylla, I know how you feel, if we could ask offcourse we would like to have all: career and passion, just follow your heart… Goodluck with your thesis project, doesn’t have to be sophisticated, but make sure it’s applicable and affordable in the future place you’re going imply the model… About the fashion and style at work, believe me it’s everywhere even in Jakarta, you just have to find the right place… so, once again, goodluck!
January 19th, 2007 at 6:52 pm
Thank you. That’s so kind of you. I’ll definitely take the advice.
But nothing is comparable to living in Montreal
January 20th, 2007 at 8:34 pm
Congratulations Aldilla for your wedding plans for this year. I’m very happy for you. Be happy and grateful, aldilla. Settle things down first back at your home with the love ones there. Remember, you belong to the family as well. Then when you’re settled with a more stabil life with your hubby, you may think to move forward fulfilling your passion. You know what, I’m also in this kind of situation, between passion and carrer. Anyway, There’s always a way to solve. Take care!